Changes and thoughts

Okay so recently I have quit my job at Carl's Jr and got a job at McDonalds. I have felt that most of you are not supportive of this decision I have made. I have been getting comments like "Isn't that a step down?" "Why would you want to work for McDonalds" "You can do better" and much more along with glares and stuff. None of you know fully of what I am going through and that I made this decision on my own because I needed to. I have my reasons on why I did this and I feel as if I don't need to go telling everyone on why I made this choice in my life. There has been a select few people who have been supportive of this choice in my life and those are the one's who know why I have done this. I feel like I shouldn't have to tell everyone on why I have made this choice and that they should be supportive of me no matter what I do. Many of you would take back your comments if you knew fully on why I'm making this choice. Comments like those are just hurting me more then you would think they are with what I have been through recently. I wish for all of you to be supportive of me with this decision but I know that will never happen because none of you can fully feel and know what I have been through. This is my decision and it's one I feel will do more good for me then you all think it will. Please let me live my life doing what I feel is right without any rude remarks and glares. Thanks you.

Life Stinks!

Okay so I really need to vent. There is lots going on in my life and I really can't handle it anymore. I'm not quiet sure what to do anymore or even if I should do something or just give up on it all.

So for sometime now (at least 1.5 months) I have been trying to find a job. I have applied everywhere I can think of even places I would have never thought of. I have even applied at every McDonalds I can think of but no luck at all on getting a job. I have gotten maybe 4 job interviews out of all the millions of applications I have turned in but not one single offer for a job. Yes I am looking for my first job and I have been told it's going to be hard but I never thought it would be this hard. I don't know where to look at now or even if I should keep trying to get a job. I'm not sure if all this time I have wasted on trying to get a job is worth it. I have had no progress and am running out of money. I'm really hating how all these immature high school students can get a job super east but no matter how hard I work at getting a job I can't get nothing. It's not right. It's almost impossible to get a job without any work experience but there is no way to get work experience when you can't get a job. I have done everything that others have told me to do when job hunting yet I get no results at all. I'm to the point now where I don't even think I'm going to get a job. It seems like no one wants to hire me no matter how hard I work at getting a job and honestly I'm starting to lose hope that I will ever be able to get a job. All I really want right now is a job. A job where I can work hard at, learn new things, make friends, show I'm responsible, have something to fill up my free time with, and to have money to be able to pay to do things with friends or get things I need to get for school and stuff. But I guess this is asking to much. :/

There are other things that are going on also but I don't feel like talking about those right now. Maybe later. Who knows. But for now life stinks!

Summer Bucket List

Go boating(water skiing, tubing, wake boarding, etc.)
Create Crayon Canvas Art
Have some Musical Instrument Duet
Do lots of Photo-shoots
Go Mud Wrestling
Have a Paint War
Finally go to Seven Peaks
Go to Lagoon with a bunch of friends
Have Girls Nights
Go on dates with great guy(s)
Go to an NBA Basketball game
Go camping
Have a Movie night all night long
Have a giant Water Balloon fight
Go to Hoogle Zoo
Set off Fireworks that were bought in Wyoming
Finally go to Park City
Go to Florida
Finger Paint a poster with friends
Play Mud Volleyball
Go to an aquarium
Go fishing
Hike to the Y
Dress up as princesses/princes and go to the most random places (McDonalds, Movie Theater, etc.)
Do sidewalk art with chalk
Tie Dye shirts with sharpies
Go to Max Zipline
Go to Provo Beach Resort
Go paintball-ing

LDS Problems

So lately I have been really into reading LDS Problems, BYU Problems, Mormon Wonka, and Mormon Girl Problems on twitter and other sites and I just thought I'd share some of my favorites

LDS Problems

#ThatAwkwardMoment When there is a huge gap between you and the next person during the sacrament.


Never make eye contact with the person that is choosing someone to say the prayer.


Best drinking fountains on Earth. #mormonproblems


Why didn't the BYU football team do as good this year? Every time they gained ten yards, they had to give one back for tithing.


BYU Problems

New addition to the YSA hymnal- "If you like her then you should have put a ring on her" #Beyonce #BYUProblems


Prayer always helps me find the right answers...except for on my finals #NowImScrewed


Just as school ends, wedding season begins... #BYUProblems


With this many righteous kids you'd think we'd be blessed with good weather #ProvoProblems


Mormon Wonka

Oh, you're good at kissing? You must have the gift of tongues.


Oh, you pushed a handcart around for a few days? I'm sure you know exactly what the pioneers went through.


Oh, you put scripture verses as your Facebook status? You're definitely going to the celestial kingdom.


Oh, you're no longer a lip virgin? I'm sure your Bishop will need to hear about this.


Oh, you wear a bikini? You must have read the church dress code recently.


Mormon Girl Problems

You learned Spanish on your mission?! So, like, can you order for me at Cafe Rio?!


Is it sad I know people from my ward more from our Facebook group wall than in real life?


Someone needs to make a documentary of single Mormon girls and call it The Husband Games.


Elder Uchtdorf, if I married into your family I would NEVER be bitter!


Next month's Ensign should have an infographic showing contact information for the missionaries in the #LDSConf choir. #dearelder


Does Elder Uchtdorf have any sons? AND do they have the same accent as their father? If so, can I marry one of them?


I love sister missionaries (because they're in the field, they're not part of my husband hunting competition)!!!!








Enjoy! :)

Goodbye Dating & Courtship Class and spring semester

I have decided this semester to take a dating and courtship class that I have falling in love with. I have learned so much in this class and wish it would never come to an end. My teacher is just amazing. He makes the class worth going to. I have learned so much. Out of all of my classes I have had this semester, this is the one I'm the saddest to say goodbye to. It has given me something to look forward to every tuesday and thursday. This thursday is the last day...the end of my life. (or so it feels). But I am hoping to be able to go on dates and apply what I have learned from this class on these dates. To be able to find the one guy who is ment to be my husband. Then to use what I have learned to help me maintain a healthy and happy engagement and then marriage. I feel like I have been able to not only get better at communicating with guys but also with friends. There are somethings from this class that can be applied to friendships also. Well I"m probably boring you to death about how much I'm going to miss this class so here are some dating tips I learned from the class that i have fallin in love with. Hope you enjoy them like I do.

 Follow your heart, but take your brain with you
 Be careful not to use other people's lame dating patterns or standers as the standard for you
 One thing that will prepare you for marriage is to learn how to make and keep a friend
 To get dates, make yourself accessible to other people
 It will take some pressure off dating if your focus is trying to make friends with the people you date rather than worrying about whether or not you will become boyfriend and girlfriend. People marry their friends.
 Be measured and disciplined in revealing your feelings for someone. It creates a less pressured atmosphere for a relationship to grow. There is intrigued in mystery. Respect the growth cycle of other people's feelings
 Constant assessment of a relationship can sometimes prohibit it's growth.
 Keep at the flirting. Vary your methods. There is more than one way to talk to that someone you want to get to know.
 Obvious attempts are okay. subtle attempts are great too. Awkward attempts are even cute.
 Failed attempts aren't wasted. People are flattered and entertained and it's our Christian duty to lift others and bring joy into their lives.
 If we don't move out of our comfort zone, we won't grow, and if we don't grow we won't find joy.
 A reminder: you measure your success as a young single adult not by whether you are engaged or nearly engaged...but by how much you are conversing, flirting, and making new friends with those that you like.

Another class that I'm going to miss is Art History. My teacher has made the class o worth going to. I love being there. I have learned lots in the class through the semester and feel like I understand art better now. I love to point out different style periods in each art or architecture that I see. I can't wait to take more art history classes in the future.

I'm also going to miss english. For so many reasons. I love my english class but luckily I have more english classes to take. I have found a love for writing. I have volunteered to write essays for friends or to edit them for them when they are complaining about how much they hate writing essays.

Well those are the classes I'm going to miss.

First Heart Break

Have you ever had a guy lead you on? Give you the feelings that he likes you? I'm sure we all have.

So when I was about 14 there was a guy who I met at youth conference. He really caught my attention. I thought he was amazing and perfect. Never could get any more perfect. During the week at youth conference he would do everything with me. He asked me to dance with him during every slow dance song at the dances. He would sit with me during the firesides, meals, do the activities with me. He would do everything with me. Even the service projects he was right there by my side. Keeping me company. He was always asking me how I was doing and just made me smile. Being 14 I thought he would be the one I'd marry. I was head over heals crazy for him. He was perfect in my eyes. My first major crush that I have had. He had all the same values that I had...or so I thought.

After youth conferences we would go to dances together and just talk and dance. He was perfect in my eyes. All of my friends approved of him and told me that we need to make things official as soon as we are both 16.

Youth conference came around again when we were both 15. I was super excited to get to spend the week with him. This year things where different. I had competition. There was another girl who was crazy about him also but she was 14. She kept trying to steal him from me. It was a very hard week full of tears for me. I was to blind to see that he had changed and wasn't the guy I first met. I guess I didn't want to lose him. During the week he would still do things with me but she would come and take him from me and tell me how he didn't care for me and how I wasn't worth his time. It broke my heart to hear this from another girl. A girl who wanted my guy. Girls: if another girl has a guy DON'T take him from her no matter what it makes you look bad along with him. Guys: If a girl is trying to take you from another girl don't listen to her try to stay with your girl. I was able to make lots of memories with him but as time went on I was starting to hurt more and more inside. I couldn't handle another girl trying to take the guy of my dreams away.

Youth conference ended and school started up. By the time we both turned 16 I wanted to make things official with him. My friends talked me into asking him to become my boyfriend and by the time I was ready to ask him I became heartbroken. I went up to him to ask him out and right as I was about to he told me that he is gay and that he has a boyfriend. His boyfriend then walked up and kissed him right infront of me. I couldn't handle it anymore and took off. I was heartbroken big time and thought the world was coming to an end. I didn't want to see another guy again as long as I lived. He lead me on for 2 years then broke my heart. He kept the most important thing about him a secret from me. That he is gay.

I have since then recovered and started dating other guys. I have had great relationships with other guys. I have realized that I'm going to love lots of guys before I find the one that I am truly in love with and ment to spend all of eternity with.

Photography

So I haven't got the chance to really blog about my photography and I wanted to do that.

Photography is something that is apart of you. It's a style of life. Not everyone can be a photographer but if you can then you are in for a great ride in life.

So I have been drooling over a lens that I want. Which is a AF-S VR Zoom-Nikkor 70-300mm f/4.5-f.6g IF-ED.

This is a lens I have been wanting for some time now. I have a good start on camera equipment already but there is oh so much more that I want. Like lights! I need lighting equipment!!!

Okay so lets move on...

My photography has been improving a great deal over time. Here are some of my favorite pictures...

Hope you all enjoy my photography. :)

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