First Heart Break

Have you ever had a guy lead you on? Give you the feelings that he likes you? I'm sure we all have.

So when I was about 14 there was a guy who I met at youth conference. He really caught my attention. I thought he was amazing and perfect. Never could get any more perfect. During the week at youth conference he would do everything with me. He asked me to dance with him during every slow dance song at the dances. He would sit with me during the firesides, meals, do the activities with me. He would do everything with me. Even the service projects he was right there by my side. Keeping me company. He was always asking me how I was doing and just made me smile. Being 14 I thought he would be the one I'd marry. I was head over heals crazy for him. He was perfect in my eyes. My first major crush that I have had. He had all the same values that I had...or so I thought.

After youth conferences we would go to dances together and just talk and dance. He was perfect in my eyes. All of my friends approved of him and told me that we need to make things official as soon as we are both 16.

Youth conference came around again when we were both 15. I was super excited to get to spend the week with him. This year things where different. I had competition. There was another girl who was crazy about him also but she was 14. She kept trying to steal him from me. It was a very hard week full of tears for me. I was to blind to see that he had changed and wasn't the guy I first met. I guess I didn't want to lose him. During the week he would still do things with me but she would come and take him from me and tell me how he didn't care for me and how I wasn't worth his time. It broke my heart to hear this from another girl. A girl who wanted my guy. Girls: if another girl has a guy DON'T take him from her no matter what it makes you look bad along with him. Guys: If a girl is trying to take you from another girl don't listen to her try to stay with your girl. I was able to make lots of memories with him but as time went on I was starting to hurt more and more inside. I couldn't handle another girl trying to take the guy of my dreams away.

Youth conference ended and school started up. By the time we both turned 16 I wanted to make things official with him. My friends talked me into asking him to become my boyfriend and by the time I was ready to ask him I became heartbroken. I went up to him to ask him out and right as I was about to he told me that he is gay and that he has a boyfriend. His boyfriend then walked up and kissed him right infront of me. I couldn't handle it anymore and took off. I was heartbroken big time and thought the world was coming to an end. I didn't want to see another guy again as long as I lived. He lead me on for 2 years then broke my heart. He kept the most important thing about him a secret from me. That he is gay.

I have since then recovered and started dating other guys. I have had great relationships with other guys. I have realized that I'm going to love lots of guys before I find the one that I am truly in love with and ment to spend all of eternity with.