Summer Bucket List

Go boating(water skiing, tubing, wake boarding, etc.)
Create Crayon Canvas Art
Have some Musical Instrument Duet
Do lots of Photo-shoots
Go Mud Wrestling
Have a Paint War
Finally go to Seven Peaks
Go to Lagoon with a bunch of friends
Have Girls Nights
Go on dates with great guy(s)
Go to an NBA Basketball game
Go camping
Have a Movie night all night long
Have a giant Water Balloon fight
Go to Hoogle Zoo
Set off Fireworks that were bought in Wyoming
Finally go to Park City
Go to Florida
Finger Paint a poster with friends
Play Mud Volleyball
Go to an aquarium
Go fishing
Hike to the Y
Dress up as princesses/princes and go to the most random places (McDonalds, Movie Theater, etc.)
Do sidewalk art with chalk
Tie Dye shirts with sharpies
Go to Max Zipline
Go to Provo Beach Resort
Go paintball-ing

LDS Problems

So lately I have been really into reading LDS Problems, BYU Problems, Mormon Wonka, and Mormon Girl Problems on twitter and other sites and I just thought I'd share some of my favorites

LDS Problems

#ThatAwkwardMoment When there is a huge gap between you and the next person during the sacrament.


Never make eye contact with the person that is choosing someone to say the prayer.


Best drinking fountains on Earth. #mormonproblems


Why didn't the BYU football team do as good this year? Every time they gained ten yards, they had to give one back for tithing.


BYU Problems

New addition to the YSA hymnal- "If you like her then you should have put a ring on her" #Beyonce #BYUProblems


Prayer always helps me find the right answers...except for on my finals #NowImScrewed


Just as school ends, wedding season begins... #BYUProblems


With this many righteous kids you'd think we'd be blessed with good weather #ProvoProblems


Mormon Wonka

Oh, you're good at kissing? You must have the gift of tongues.


Oh, you pushed a handcart around for a few days? I'm sure you know exactly what the pioneers went through.


Oh, you put scripture verses as your Facebook status? You're definitely going to the celestial kingdom.


Oh, you're no longer a lip virgin? I'm sure your Bishop will need to hear about this.


Oh, you wear a bikini? You must have read the church dress code recently.


Mormon Girl Problems

You learned Spanish on your mission?! So, like, can you order for me at Cafe Rio?!


Is it sad I know people from my ward more from our Facebook group wall than in real life?


Someone needs to make a documentary of single Mormon girls and call it The Husband Games.


Elder Uchtdorf, if I married into your family I would NEVER be bitter!


Next month's Ensign should have an infographic showing contact information for the missionaries in the #LDSConf choir. #dearelder


Does Elder Uchtdorf have any sons? AND do they have the same accent as their father? If so, can I marry one of them?


I love sister missionaries (because they're in the field, they're not part of my husband hunting competition)!!!!








Enjoy! :)

Goodbye Dating & Courtship Class and spring semester

I have decided this semester to take a dating and courtship class that I have falling in love with. I have learned so much in this class and wish it would never come to an end. My teacher is just amazing. He makes the class worth going to. I have learned so much. Out of all of my classes I have had this semester, this is the one I'm the saddest to say goodbye to. It has given me something to look forward to every tuesday and thursday. This thursday is the last day...the end of my life. (or so it feels). But I am hoping to be able to go on dates and apply what I have learned from this class on these dates. To be able to find the one guy who is ment to be my husband. Then to use what I have learned to help me maintain a healthy and happy engagement and then marriage. I feel like I have been able to not only get better at communicating with guys but also with friends. There are somethings from this class that can be applied to friendships also. Well I"m probably boring you to death about how much I'm going to miss this class so here are some dating tips I learned from the class that i have fallin in love with. Hope you enjoy them like I do.

 Follow your heart, but take your brain with you
 Be careful not to use other people's lame dating patterns or standers as the standard for you
 One thing that will prepare you for marriage is to learn how to make and keep a friend
 To get dates, make yourself accessible to other people
 It will take some pressure off dating if your focus is trying to make friends with the people you date rather than worrying about whether or not you will become boyfriend and girlfriend. People marry their friends.
 Be measured and disciplined in revealing your feelings for someone. It creates a less pressured atmosphere for a relationship to grow. There is intrigued in mystery. Respect the growth cycle of other people's feelings
 Constant assessment of a relationship can sometimes prohibit it's growth.
 Keep at the flirting. Vary your methods. There is more than one way to talk to that someone you want to get to know.
 Obvious attempts are okay. subtle attempts are great too. Awkward attempts are even cute.
 Failed attempts aren't wasted. People are flattered and entertained and it's our Christian duty to lift others and bring joy into their lives.
 If we don't move out of our comfort zone, we won't grow, and if we don't grow we won't find joy.
 A reminder: you measure your success as a young single adult not by whether you are engaged or nearly engaged...but by how much you are conversing, flirting, and making new friends with those that you like.

Another class that I'm going to miss is Art History. My teacher has made the class o worth going to. I love being there. I have learned lots in the class through the semester and feel like I understand art better now. I love to point out different style periods in each art or architecture that I see. I can't wait to take more art history classes in the future.

I'm also going to miss english. For so many reasons. I love my english class but luckily I have more english classes to take. I have found a love for writing. I have volunteered to write essays for friends or to edit them for them when they are complaining about how much they hate writing essays.

Well those are the classes I'm going to miss.

First Heart Break

Have you ever had a guy lead you on? Give you the feelings that he likes you? I'm sure we all have.

So when I was about 14 there was a guy who I met at youth conference. He really caught my attention. I thought he was amazing and perfect. Never could get any more perfect. During the week at youth conference he would do everything with me. He asked me to dance with him during every slow dance song at the dances. He would sit with me during the firesides, meals, do the activities with me. He would do everything with me. Even the service projects he was right there by my side. Keeping me company. He was always asking me how I was doing and just made me smile. Being 14 I thought he would be the one I'd marry. I was head over heals crazy for him. He was perfect in my eyes. My first major crush that I have had. He had all the same values that I had...or so I thought.

After youth conferences we would go to dances together and just talk and dance. He was perfect in my eyes. All of my friends approved of him and told me that we need to make things official as soon as we are both 16.

Youth conference came around again when we were both 15. I was super excited to get to spend the week with him. This year things where different. I had competition. There was another girl who was crazy about him also but she was 14. She kept trying to steal him from me. It was a very hard week full of tears for me. I was to blind to see that he had changed and wasn't the guy I first met. I guess I didn't want to lose him. During the week he would still do things with me but she would come and take him from me and tell me how he didn't care for me and how I wasn't worth his time. It broke my heart to hear this from another girl. A girl who wanted my guy. Girls: if another girl has a guy DON'T take him from her no matter what it makes you look bad along with him. Guys: If a girl is trying to take you from another girl don't listen to her try to stay with your girl. I was able to make lots of memories with him but as time went on I was starting to hurt more and more inside. I couldn't handle another girl trying to take the guy of my dreams away.

Youth conference ended and school started up. By the time we both turned 16 I wanted to make things official with him. My friends talked me into asking him to become my boyfriend and by the time I was ready to ask him I became heartbroken. I went up to him to ask him out and right as I was about to he told me that he is gay and that he has a boyfriend. His boyfriend then walked up and kissed him right infront of me. I couldn't handle it anymore and took off. I was heartbroken big time and thought the world was coming to an end. I didn't want to see another guy again as long as I lived. He lead me on for 2 years then broke my heart. He kept the most important thing about him a secret from me. That he is gay.

I have since then recovered and started dating other guys. I have had great relationships with other guys. I have realized that I'm going to love lots of guys before I find the one that I am truly in love with and ment to spend all of eternity with.

Photography

So I haven't got the chance to really blog about my photography and I wanted to do that.

Photography is something that is apart of you. It's a style of life. Not everyone can be a photographer but if you can then you are in for a great ride in life.

So I have been drooling over a lens that I want. Which is a AF-S VR Zoom-Nikkor 70-300mm f/4.5-f.6g IF-ED.

This is a lens I have been wanting for some time now. I have a good start on camera equipment already but there is oh so much more that I want. Like lights! I need lighting equipment!!!

Okay so lets move on...

My photography has been improving a great deal over time. Here are some of my favorite pictures...

Hope you all enjoy my photography. :)

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Need to vent...

Okay so yah I already talked about this but there is so much more that has happened on this subject that I just needed to talk about it to someone. I don't care who. Anyone.

So as those of you know who read my last post about these problems know that there is a girl who has been treating me basically like a piece of crap. Well things got worse. Before blocking her number I asked her to please return my movie she borrowed two months ago and that she has a week to return it to me or it's classified as stealing. Well she got ticked off at me for saying this and decided that she is going to get her mom involved in this. After I had her number blocked I got a text from her mom telling me about how I need to stop lying and grow up. Also saying that this girl never stole my movie and that I gave it to her to borrow for as long as she wants. Now I NEVER do this. I only loan out movies for a weekend. No longer. I have been asking for this movie back for about two months now and every time I asked for it back she would ignore me like she didn't have the movie. Back to the main part. Her mom kept on texting me telling me how it's my responsibility to get the movie back and it's not really theirs to get it back to me even though I have been asking for it back for awhile. Her mom then decided that she was going to go drop it off at my mom's work last friday. I went in to my mom's work and the movie was never there. So I figured it would get dropped off monday. Monday came and went same with Tuesday. Now it's Wednesday and I get a text from her mom yelling at me and basically treating me as if I'm her daughter to lecture. I told her to please not talk to me like that and to drop my movie off where she said she would and to not contact me anymore. An hour later I get a text from her saying that it's at the police station in a town 25 minutes away! It also said that I have till 5pm to pick up the movie or it goes into the evidence room and becomes evidence for a court case! Now this is pushing it. This never needed to happen. The police shouldn't be involved in this. It's stupid and down right immature. It's a movie that could EASILY be returned to me but they had to make a big deal out of it and take it to the police as they do with all their problems. It's now almsot 2pm and I have class till 4pm. No way of getting the movie back in time. I asked one of my friends if she could please go get it for me and if they don't let her pick it up to please give me a call so I can explain things to the police. She gladly said she would do it for me.

Honestly I think this whole thing is stupid and I'm done with drama. I have decided that if you want to start drama in my life and not work things out then you don't need to be in my life intill you are ready to work things out. I don't need people treating me like this.

Things that bug me

This is just something I need to get out there. For someone to read or for someone to not read. Doesn't matter as long as it's out there. 

So lately I have this friend and things have gone down hill big time in the friendship. For a couple of months every time I'm with her ALL we do is talk about guys. Nothing else. She is always telling me about how she needs a boyfriend and how I need to find her one. That she is tired of being alone and needs a boyfriend. It has gotten to the point of just being annoying to the point where I can't handle it anymore. I don't want to be the one who is the hook up girl who hooks people up. That's not me. I strongly believe in just letting things happen and making your own efforts at things. If things are ment to be it will happen. If it's not ment to be then move on. Things will get better. But no matter what she doesn't think they will. She is convinced that she will be alone forever. 

She has also been telling me all the time that I'm not allowed to flirt with guys, that I can't go on dates, that I'm not allowed to have a boyfriend, get engaged, married till she gets married. She says it's just joking but the fact that she has been saying it for so long and all the time proves to me that she is just selfish. Wants all the attention and needs a guy but is to lazy to go out and get her own. It is something that is not just annoying but it hurts. She doesn't realize how much it hurts me to hear her say that to me. She thinks it's not that big of a deal and that I have no idea what sarcasm is. 

She has also told me that I think that EVERY guy flirts with me. No matter who the guy is if he talks to me she thinks that I think that is flirting. It's not. I know what flirting is. It's not my fault that there is lots of guys who do flirt with me. I don't choose who flirts with me. I have and never will think that every guy flirts with me. 

She finds it annoying how when I get a date and I tell her but yet she tells me when she gets a date and who it's with and stuff. I find this plain out immature. A girl should be allowed to go on a date and tell her friends who she considers good friends about how the date went. She shouldn't have to keep her life that consists of dating and stuff to herself. It's not right. Girls like to talk about this stuff. I should know cause I'm a girl. 

One thing that just set me off today is when she told me how I think I'm prettier then all the other girls out there. Which is not true. There are MANY girls out there who I think are very pretty and would love to hear tips on beauty from them. This just ticks me off. She thinks I'm self centered when I'm not. I'm loving and care for people. It also bugs me how she is always saying how she is not pretty and stuff when she is. I'm just tired of her doing stuff like this to me. I can't handle it. 

There is so much that is going on and I'm just done with it. This is the majority of what is going on with her and me. I'm done with it. I blocked her on Facebook today and blocked her number from texting/calling me. If she is going to treat me like trash and put me down trying to hurt my feelings then I'm not going to talk to her. 

Feeding Frenzy of Fashion!

I really should blog more...but I don't see that happening for a long time.

So lately things have been between ehh and good. I guess there has been lots that have been bugging me but yet I try to shove it in the back of my mind and just have fun while trying to forget about everything. It works at times but it always ends up coming out at some point. There is just so much that is going on in life now days that it's really hard to hold things together without falling apart. I wanna stay strong buy yet I can't always. It seems like at times there is no one there or that it just seems like no one knows what you are going through or ever will and that you just have to go through it alone without anyone there. Waiting for that light at the end of the tunnel to come but yet it doesn't seem to come.

So lately for like a couple of months I have been sick off and on. It's not like one day during the week I feel sick then the next I'm better. It's more like one minute I'm totally fine and then the next minute I feel super weak, start to get a little dizzy and feel like I might lose my stomach. It's basically gotten to the point where I can only eat 1 meal a day and if I eat more then that then I have stomach pains and start feeling sick or if I eat to much in one setting. I can't fully eat a full meal in one sitting unless I force myself to and deal with the pains it'll cause later. I am also not able to eat junk food without getting sick either. It has to be healthy food but not healthy as in what society thinks is healthy. Healthy as in what I have and probably will always consider healthy(my terms of healthy below). I have also been losing A LOT of weight since the summer. About 20 pounds or more. I have no idea why or whats going on at all. I have also gotten my blood pressure checked and it's on the low side of normal. I'm not sure if it's always been like this but I know it's low. I'm not sure if this could be a reason why I'm sick off and on or if there is something else. There are also some other things going on but those I don't feel like posting on here for certain reasons.

Healthy: Healthy eating to me is hardly any meats (no matter what kind it is). Nothing with sugar or to much sugar. No drinks that are sugary or have under 100% juice. Drink lots of water. Eat bread once and awhile. No milk unless it's cooked into something or part of something else. Soy milk is allowed. Lots of fruits and veggies. Chips very rarely. Cookies rarely and those depend on the type that they are. Sea food is allowed. No to hardly any salt. There is much more that I just can't think of right now.

So onto the good things that have been going on. I have met lots of great new friends this year. It seems like I am really fitting in here in UT. I feel like UT is where I am suppose to be at. I have been accepted by so many people and it just makes me feel so great that so many people want to get to know me and be my friend. I really enjoy it here and don't want to leave intill I have to.

On to other great things. I have recently learned that I'm an amazing artist. I never knew that I could draw till this semester. I still diss on my drawings a lot but as I look back at them I'm proud of what I am able to do and can't wait to get better.

Then a side random note: Adobe Photoshop CS6 comes out this spring sometime!!! And I"m a beta tester!!! I LOVE it! Can't wait to buy the full version and get to own it and call it mine.

Anywho's

Peace out

Rae