Mad/Hurt

So I am the kind of person who doesn't tell you when I'm mad at you. I have my own way of expressing it. I'm the kind of person who when I'm mad at someone and they ask me if I'm mad at them I wil tell them that I'm not. It's just the person I am. I will tell the person I'm mad at them when I'm ready if I feel like I need to. Sometimes I won't tell anyone and it will just stay hidden that I'm mad at someone.

Some have noticed that I have been hurting lately but most have not. Yes I have been hurting a lot lately and it's really complicated on why I have been hurting so much. There is sooooo much I want to say but I can't. I have gotten to the point where I'm just taking life as it comes hoping for it to get better. This summer has been one of the hardest for me and I'm getting through it. I'm becoming a stronger person but I'm still hurting. There are no words for how much I am hurting. It's hard to describe how much I am  hurting to where someone else could understand it. I hoping that this pain goes away soon. Things will get better but it's going to take time for it to get better. Right now I have to take life as it comes and deal with this hurt.

Happiness

Okay so some of you have noticed that I haven't had the best time  lately and that I've been going through a really hard time. Struggling to get through each day. I want to thank all of you who put up with me. There has been so much that has been on my mind in the past month that has been bugging me and affecting me on a day to day bases. There is so muh I want to say to some people but probably won't. I have made some changes in my life to work towards being happier in life. I'm making these changes for myself. Not for anyone else. I refuse to make changes for someone else and not for myself. All changes I make are going to be for me to work towards my happiness in life. I have learned a lot the past month or so and it has made me a stronger person. I can't say that I'm happy it happened but I can say that I'm happy that I have learned from it and have become a better person because of it. I am going to strive to be a better person for myself. To help make my life the best that it possibly can be. I still have some things to figure out in life and it's going to be a touch road to learn them but I am a lot closer to learning them then I was a month ago. I am hoping to have everything sorted out soon. I am a lot happier now then I was a couple days ago. I am probably the happiest I have been in a long time and still have a ways to go to work towards being fully happy with myself and with my life but I am getting there and will be glad when this road is over. I have some of the most amazing friends who have helped me through this hard time. I wish I could thank each one of you and pay you back for the help you have been. I love each and everyone of you.